Water The Flowers

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Life has been a tad crazy to be honest with you. Trying to write a blog post has been a little bit of challenge. All because of time. Not enough hours in the day, no inspiration… it tends to drag.

There is so much going on, and eventually I will tell all. It’s kind of like a puzzle, one day it looks like everything is together, and then other days it looks like everything is falling apart. Sounds depressing, I know, but hang with me a sec.

One of the things that I think makes life beautiful and unique is the different stories. We are all walking stories and they can be similar in some ways but they are different to each of us. Which is beautiful. I happen to be in a rainy season right now. I have planted a lot flowers and now we have to wait for them to bloom. That is where it is hard waiting. Waiting for all the good things to come from it. I think the biggest mistake is that when the rain comes we tend to get depressed and wish it would stop. However, when you plant flowers you have to water it. So rainy seasons are simply just watering your flowers. It doesn’t have to be a horrible thing.

Seasons of life are natural and they are necessary. It helps us learn and grow. Life is full of lessons. The good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly.

Ecclesiastes 3:1

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven

There is more to the passage that is worth reading, but we have different seasons for a reason. To learn from them, to grow.

The rainy season is not an end but the beginning of something new. It is all the life lessons we have learned being watered and growing to become apart of ourselves. To be transparent with you, I have been struggling with this concept. Simply because I like to go through the what if I did this or that. It’s hard to see the good in the seasons that are not the ones we are looking forward to. That’s the point is it not? If everything happened exactly the way we wanted them too then we wouldn’t need a Savior. Someone to champion for us during the rough times. The times where you feel like you are drowning and have no where to go. We flail about our arms about and we try and make sense of the things that don’t always make sense. It makes us feel hopeless and that is why we don’t look at those seasons of rain with contempt. We didn’t choose this, we didn’t ask for it so why do we have to deal with it? Questions I have asked myself so many times. I wish I had the answer as to why bad things happen, but I do know that I don’t have to go through this stuff alone. That is the part we tend to forget. That we are not the first or last person to deal with the stuff we go through. We would be surprise looking around us, how many people have or are dealing with the same things that we are.

So don’t stress when the rain comes, because at the end, we will see something beautiful will have popped up. Just be patient.

~Bee

The Calling I Hid From


Hello and welcome to my little home here on the internet! I am so glad you stopped by! 

I hope you don’t mind my soul sharing but I want to talk about callings. Specifically the one I have been hiding from. 

“How does one hide from their calling?” You may be wondering…well here is my realization.

When I felt God speak to me and tell me I was going to be a Pastor’s wife, that wasn’t scary to me. I was fully prepared to be someone’s side kick. To encourage my husband from the pew as he got up to the pulpit. Easy right? 

God had to have laughed. Today I am married and my husband is licensed to preach, a deacon at our Church and looking at seminary. The calling to be a Pastor’s wife was easy because I didn’t listen to the still small voice saying “ Okay Brandy, now that you know what your husband’s occupation is, let’s talk about how you are going to serve me.” I went about my business. Then I kept feeling the nudging of the Spirit and the opportunities that were open and I didn’t take because I had the following excuses:

1. I am too anxious

2. I don’t know how to start

3. I felt like I was going to drown before stepping into the water

They were excuses. God can use us no matter where we came from or who we are. It’s no secret to Him if I’m shy and introverted. He created me! But He created me to step out of my comfort zone despite my introverted ways. 

This blog, writing, sharing my heart through written word and spoken words are gifts and talents He has given me as a mission field. The disinterest, the fear… I hid from writing because it was easier to do then to step out on faith and allow God to take control. I was being a control freak. I liked controlling my destiny.  When in reality, I had no control at all. 

In the beginning of February, I approached my Pastor and my Pastor’s wife about my anxiety. I had been plagued for months with intense anxiety. I got to a place where I felt I couldn’t hear God and I couldn’t discern His voice. We had made arrangements to meet up after Church on Sundays. I started the devotional 100 Days To Brave. Then before our meeting to discuss what I had gleaned from my first week Lisa, my pastor’s wife, passed away suddenly. A part of me honestly felt that I couldn’t go on with it. You know though, I had already had break through moments and I felt the anxiety dripping away. Why put back on the chains? I continued on. The past week had been about callings. As I prayed, for the first time with listening ears and I committed to doing whatever was asked of me, I felt God open my eyes to my writing. 

I don’t know where He will take me but the point is; I am done hiding from it. There is a quote from Elisabeth Elliot that I love and I believe is fitting: 

“ This job has been given to me to do. Therefore, it is a gift. Therefore, it is a privilege. Therefore, it is an offering I may make to God. Therefore, it has to been done gladly if it is done for Him. Here, not somewhere else, I may learn God’s way. In this job, not in some other, God looks for faithfulness.” -Elisabeth Elliot

What is the job, the calling you are called to do? Don’t hide, do it. If you don’t know your calling, seek Him. He will reveal His job for you to do. Then when you you find it, do the next thing (another Elisabeth Elliot reference). 

– Brandy

Letting Go and Letting God

      
This morning, I sat with my cup of coffee and my new devotional. The past few days with Shauna  on pregnancy and the exposed heart of a woman aching to be a mom. 

Since entering this journey, it has been full of up’s and downs. I don’t think any woman expects to still be sitting on the bench waiting to be picked for the mommy team. 

It’s not that I’m not happy for the wonderful women who have joined the mommy team. In fact, I am elated. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t have a moment where I wish I could have the same thing. 

The past month, I felt a gentle tug on my heart to allow July to be a month of rest. It is so easy to allow myself to feel the anxiety and sadness of the months that didn’t work out the way I wanted them too. To be able to stand on the edge of that mountain and raise my hands and cry out in complete surrender. To come to a place where it is okay to feel the emotions that hit me. At the same time not allowing sadness to conquer my heart. I think in those moments, there is nothing that God can’t handle. This doesn’t just mean infertility but for every aspect of life that becomes difficult. Whether it is praying for a new job or waiting for God to point in the direction where your gifts will be used. No matter the season you are in, there is nothing that God can’t handle or carry you through. 

Whatever it is that you are going through, would you join me in letting it go and allowing God to carry us? 

~Brandy

Change is a Good Thing

I know that typically on Thursdays I do product reviews. I will doing my product reviews on Fridays instead. On Thursdays I am going to be sharing with you what is in my heart. When I sit down with a cup of coffee and sit and type, sip my coffee, type… you get the picture. For the past couple of weeks I have felt like something has been just missing. Then in my quiet times with the Lord it hit me. I love fashion, and makeup, cooking… My blog is really going to be going up the next level for me. This is a personal challenge, and I am very excited about this. The Lord has been pushing my heart in this direction. Grooming me, preparing me, teaching me. Now I am ready to take this step. It means an intense blogging schedule for me, it means that a lot more planning will be involved in each blog post. This would be a personal challenge for me. A blog post everyday. Each day will be different. It is time for me to get out of my comfort zone, and really take my blog where I have dreamed of taking it. I will release what my plans are for each day tomorrow.  Everything is still in the planning process, and my heart is bursting with joy! The look of my blog for right now is going to stay. After all I really just changed it! But I will be adding to my blog. including favorite blogs, websites. I already have a Good Morning Girls logo on the side here ( seriously, go check them out!!!!) Eventually I will be changing even the layout of my blog….. who knows I may just get that under way today. 😉 Please pray for me as I am going through this huge change in my blogging life! I am excited to see where the Lord takes me on this journey, and I love having my reader friends join me on this journey!

~ Brandy

No-Poo Challenge

I am going to try the no-poo challenge. Basically what it is, is me washing my hair with baking soda. Thankfully my scalp isn’t sensitive. I have been adding baking soda to my shampoo. I have noticed a huge difference in my hair since I started. I am actually very excited to see the results of this challenge. I will be doing this for a month. I think it is going to be difficult only because I am so use to reaching my Dove shampoo. However, I am comited to improving the over all look  of my hair. I will be posting weekly updates on the results. That will include a photo, and my thoughts and feelings on the challenge. If you have ever tried the no-poo challenge, what did you think of it? Let me know if the comments below!

Here is a before picture:

 

Here’s to having better looking hair!