Hello and welcome to me little home here on the internet!
The other day I was cleaning and I pulled out a camera I was given. I couldn’t remember if there were photos or anything but I uploaded everything to my computer to go through. I ended up finding some vacation photos from a couple of years ago ( I think??). I was excited to find them and I also impressed that they actually looked pretty good. Good enough for Instagram even. I am not a photographer by any means nor do I really feel a call to pick up a camera and start snapping photos, but I do enjoy taking photos and . learning how to edit, when the lighting is right.. but it’s not my calling.
I talked a little bit finding my calling here The Calling I Hid From and now I want to talk about what’s next. There is a simple quote by Elisabeth Elliot ( If you can’t tell, I’m a fan)
“Do the next thing.” Elisabeth Elliot
Such a simple phrase, yet when it comes to doing things we are super passionate about, our callings, or simply just wanting to try something new: it is scary. There is that fear of failure, the fear of not being good enough. There is always some risks. We are imperfect, we make mistakes and we compare our journey’s to others. However here is some truth to those little things that run through our heads. These thoughts, I am about to share are my personal reflections on these topics.
Ah…..here we are. Since I talked a little bit about fear in my last post mentioned above, I figured I would talk about comparison. Comparison is silly to be honest. If I could put how silly I felt when I realized looking at all the polished aesthetically Instagram feeds, gorgeous blogs, the fun YouTube channels, that I was measuring my own blog and Instagram against everyone else’s. There is a really neat quote that I saw on Pinterest and I am going to just type it out here but if you know who wrote it let me know:
“How cool is it that the same God, who created mountains, and oceans, and galaxies, looked at you and thought the world needed one of you too?”
There are also these verses:
“Don’t you know that the runners in a stadium all race, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way to win the prize. Now everyone who competes exercises self-control in everything. They do it to receive a perishable crown, but we an imperishable crown.” 1 Corinthians 9:24-25
You were created to run the race before you. Don’t look off to the side, ahead of you, or behind you. Don’t focus on what the other person is doing or not doing, do what you have been put in place for. We all have our individual prizes and crowns. Let’s not long for someone else’s life or wish we were in their place. Because let’s be honest, we don’t know the miles they walked to get where they are, just as they don’t know the miles you have walked. We each progress and we grow differently. We are unique and our stories are unique.
I don’t know about you, but I have a fear of failing. There, I said it. I like having plans A-Z in place and I don’t like it when surprises come up and I have not prepared for it.. I have talked myself out of not going through doors, which turn into missed opportunities because I am afraid of being told ‘No’ or God-forbid ‘Yes’. Because I don’t want to fail. In yeses and no’s, I just don’t want to fail. Recently, I stepped out of my comfort zone and did something that could potentially be a great thing. It turned into me checking my email constantly begging for a reply, when there was nothing, I allowed that little voice to whisper lies into my heart. I had to pause, and remind myself of who God says I am. Just because I don’t get the answers I want, that does not make me a failure. Just because I didn’t hear back on my timeline, doesn’t make me a failure. Even if I don’t ever hear back, I am still not a failure. God is a good God. He answers our prayers, but even if He doesn’t answer our prayers the way we want Him too, He is still good. Sometimes the answer is actually ‘No’. There can be so many reasons for why the answer is ‘No’. I have noticed in my personal walk, that sometimes the ‘No’ is because it’s not good for me. Or there have been times it’s a ‘No’ for this season but next season it’s a ‘yes’. I had to come to a place where I can say ‘Your Will not mine.’
“As it also says in Hosea, I will call Not my People, My People, and she who is Unloved, Beloved.” Romans 9:24
I love this verse because it reminds me of my identity in Christ. No where in my identity is the word failure. There is victory in Christ. I have found that sometimes the mistake is trying to forge my calling from my own fire. We need to stop and seek God for direction because He has been forging this calling before we were born. He knows the plans He has for us. His plans are for us to prosper not fail.
In all honesty, these two things have been areas of learning in every aspect of my life. These things don’t apply just to callings but in every part of our lives. So go, my friend, do the next thing to get where your going. Run the race and remember you are beloved not a failure.