Refining 25

This year, as I have said many times, has been a real refining year. For me, 25 has been a refining age. It has been painful, I’ll be honest. Incredibly painful. I have had to come to terms with where I am in life and be okay with that. I have had to face past demons that I have allowed to stick around for far to long. I have had to go through tough stuff right along with joy. There have been days I have white knuckled days and days I have laughed through. One thing that has been made clear, is that I am tired of the surface faith I seem to have. Funny how the toughest moments can make you question the depth of your faith. I took a long look in the mirror and saw a stretched thin stressed afraid woman, I did not see a strong prayer warrior and saved joyful person. I allowed my circumstances to just smack me around. I was ashamed to be honest, because you read Matthew 6:25-34 and Jesus tells us not to worry, yet I do. Instead of taking it to the Lord in prayer, I just clutched it in my fits unwilling to let go. I desire depth and whine and complain when I don’t have it. Let’s be honest here, I kept myself from that depth. What legacy does whining leave? Not a good one. Why was I okay living a life of mediocre faith when I have been saved by grace. Someone took the baggage and I demanded to carry it. 

So here’s to letting go and letting God do what He has already done. 


Big News Coming! 

For starters, I want to apologize for the serious lack of blog posts. There is some news that I will be sharing in a few days and I think you’ll understand the lack of blogging. It’s been hard not talking about it and for the record, I am not pregnant. So you can cross that off your list. 

I am excited for this new chapter in my life and I am looking forward to sharing the news with you! 🙂 

Till next time!


Hello My Old Friend

It has been a long time since I have actually blogged. To be honest, I was living life off the blog and between a real bad reading slump, feeling like my blog was becoming a job and no longer a joy, I stepped back. I believe that we never stop learning about ourselves and we change in ways that puzzle in one way and amaze in another. I had to go through some tough life lessons. I had to come to terms with who I am. Funny how we long for acceptance from others when we fail to accept ourselves for who we are. 

I am 25 years old and I am still learning that it is important to stand up for myself, to love who I am and to be confident in the path God has put me on. For so long I have struggled to explain and to rationalize things for others to understand but the truth is, is that there are always going to be peaople who will never understand. And you know what? They don’t have to. 

Everyone has a calling in life. A part of mine is right here, writing in this blog. 

With that being said Iwant to try and blog more often. So till next time.