Being Refined Like Gold

Well after an expected break from blogging to handle family matters, I am back. 

Isn’t it funny how unexpected life is? I want to share with you my heart for a moment.

My heart has been bursting.  With Colin now licensed, the Lord has really been doing a number on my heart. Where am I to serve in the local church?

That is a question that I have avoided answering for two reasons:

1. I wasn’t looking because I was content. I thought I would be doing something in Childrens Ministry. The very thought of doing something else scared me. I have loved seeing God work in the hearts of children that I got to teach. Seeing them grow into God fearing young men and women. Scary to think my first class where I started as a teachers helper is in High School now! ( Say it’s not so!!!!) My last class where I was lead teacher for the two year olds are now 4-5 year olds. 

2. I have ignored the gentle tug. All because of my insecurities in myself. 

If you know how gold is made there is step where the gold is heated and the impurities gets skimmed until there is nothing but gold.  I am in that skimming stage right now. The process at times hurts, and sometimes I don’t quite understand the purpose in some of the harder times. However, I know that there is a reason for the season I am in. In the end the answer to the question, where I will serve will be answered in whole. In this time; I am content to be crashed by each wave till the only thing that comes out of mouth is: It Is Well With My Soul. 

In the end I will come to know more in depth, me as a person who is loved by Jesus in ways I can only imagine. The journey may be hard and I may need to be wandering the desert for 40 years till I come to the genesis of a new chapter. But this I know, I am not alone. Never was. Never will be. 

~ Brandy