Since entering this journey, it has been full of up’s and downs. I don’t think any woman expects to still be sitting on the bench waiting to be picked for the mommy team.
It’s not that I’m not happy for the wonderful women who have joined the mommy team. In fact, I am elated. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t have a moment where I wish I could have the same thing.
The past month, I felt a gentle tug on my heart to allow July to be a month of rest. It is so easy to allow myself to feel the anxiety and sadness of the months that didn’t work out the way I wanted them too. To be able to stand on the edge of that mountain and raise my hands and cry out in complete surrender. To come to a place where it is okay to feel the emotions that hit me. At the same time not allowing sadness to conquer my heart. I think in those moments, there is nothing that God can’t handle. This doesn’t just mean infertility but for every aspect of life that becomes difficult. Whether it is praying for a new job or waiting for God to point in the direction where your gifts will be used. No matter the season you are in, there is nothing that God can’t handle or carry you through.
Whatever it is that you are going through, would you join me in letting it go and allowing God to carry us?