Well after many thoughts and praying, I am going to start sharing about my TTC journey. I have shared bits and pieces once a month or so. However, I am in a place where I feel like opening the bolted door and spreading out the welcome mat for those who may be going through the same frustrations and heartbreak as I am. Whether you are diagnosed with infertility or your just going through infertility without having anything really wrong with you and your just having problems conceiving. It is a journey that no one wants to go on. Yet for some of us, we are here. We don’t want to be, but we are.
I decided to share my heart with you, because I want to have a chance to turn this season, this journey into something other then me crying over a negative test result. Don’t get me wrong I hate negative pregnancy tests. It is frustrating. So while I don’t want my entire blog to focus on this journey, I still want to at least share my heart openly and freely.
This month, I felt like it started out pretty good. I have been working on being healthy, and ready for summer. I also tried to put the idea of TTC in the back of my mind, and try without trying if that makes sense. Which also means I sucked at really paying attention to when I may have ovulated. Lovely….I am also late. I took a test this morning and it was negative. I expected it to be, so I wasn’t as shocked. So I am still waiting to see if I get a period in the next few days. I have been having symptoms that are PMS related. At the same time, I think I may have ovulated later then what the app suggested. Just because I have been at least checking my cervical mucus ( sorry for TMI!) and so while I am waiting the next couple of days to see if my period shows up, I am also thinking I need to give myself so more time. Simply because I am not 100% sure. Bad month to throw caution to the wind. I have switched apps for this cycle and so far I am loving it. I will do a post on that later.
I am kind of on the fence on how I really feel. The waiting is the worst. Waiting to see if my mucus charting was right, and waiting to see if AF comes. Nerve racking!
I will post what happens as soon as I know!
Praying for Baby Dust your way,